my journey to self preservation.......

this has been hard for me..i know that if i just have the perseverance and guts to the these things then it will be a good sign... even before i was a kid until now im being teased because of my weight problems and until now some people just cant get the hold of it...before my life was just on having fun,eating and pigging out and everything unworthy but the realization came in when i just recently celebrated my birthday....my crush told me the most sweetest and the most painful words i could ever imagine in my whole life...

he said that he likes me and he thinks that he's falling for me but the thing is im so fat that he is having 2nd thoughts about the things he has been feeling.i was so shocked and heart broken when i heard those words...then a realization hit me like i was being slapped hard in my face.. I AM FAT..... i know its hard to accept but lets face it, you have the ins if you have a sexy body rather than being a fatty right?....i never had a perfect boyfriend in all my life then there comes this opportunity.my crush saying that he likes me but the one thing separates us from each other is my weight issues... i have been thinking about it for days now, and ive made my decision to lose weight even if the hardest way possible... i want to change my life and i know this event will drastically change my life forever.....

i know its hard but i feel that withs god's grace, i can do it......

this wil be the start of " MY JOURNEY TO SELF PRESERVATION".........

Confessions of a Teenage Shopaholic.....

when i go to malls, usually i do the tag line "shop till i drop" but twith the global financial crisis is in effect it came to me that we need to save and spend lesser than we usually do. i just saw the movie and read the book "Confessions of a Shopaholic" by Sophie Kinsella and i have just realized that there's more life in the shopping world..i learned that more and more people are suffering from credit card debts and most of us are shopaholics. me myself i admit it... we must help the shopaholics out there so that we can have a fruitful and happy life...happy sunday...

unemployment...another trouble....

OMG.... the crisis has hitten us very hard and more and more people have been laid off their jobs and are now JOBLESS....unemployment climbs at a all time high this year and well, does it suit you?

its march again....month of new beginnings!!!!

time moves swiftly to us..its march again..students will graduate and face a new chapter on their lives.. i hope they have what it takes to face our more harsh and difficult world but i know that every person has a courage to face our world today....

New Beginning.....

as i have been nearing at an certain age again, i think its time for me to rejuvenate and start a new beginning...my day is coming closer and i think that my day is the most suitable day for the start of my new beginning....i hope i will be successful on this one....