SICK!!!! and update of yours truly...

yours truly is home for the weekend because he is very SICK!! I even can't move around the house because of the body pains I am experiencing. hope I can be well for the weeks to come because vacation mode again is getting near and I can't explain but I have a really good feeling tat i'm gonna have a very nice and loving Christmas.. looking for someone for me or to be my "partner" have been in a very low level nowadays especially I am bombarded by school work, projects,examinations and everything about school. I just hope that they will not give us humongous school work to do for the holidays because how can you enjoy the holidays if you have so many work to do right?..

Many people say why not look for a partner? its been months already since your estranged relationship with "that guy". don't mop for him its not worth it... that's the monologue of my friends to me well all I can say is : FYI, I am not moping for him!! he is so not worth it!!.. but also I am tired of the meet - greet - date - relationship - misunderstandings - break up kind of setting. most of my past relationships have been a fall for me and even now I'm still trying to hide the horror they have given to me.. I really just can't understand myself why I am quitting this sort of thing, even if months and years ago this is the center of my life....

Maybe, I am too focused in school now and some activities that's why dating possibilities have been way way down below my list..

Or maybe, I am fed up with the results of my dating scheme that I have given up dating possibilities?

I don't know, but for now.. I'm going to focus on other things beside dating..

and who knows, maybe someday or sometime it may come to me in perfect timing. well then ill just wait when will it happen...I'm not giving up, I'll just put my alter ego to hibernation process since it is still not the right time for my alter ego to rule over me...

for the meantime, I'm happy being single surrounded by persons who love me very dearly, My family and friends.. and I'm also focusing on the upcoming Christmas so ho ho ho to everyone!!1