GOODBYE 2009...WELCOME 2010!!!

hello everyone!! its been days since I updated my blog, well you know the reasons. because of the HOLIDAY RUSH i have been very busy shopping,going to church, visiting my relatives and alike. I know that 2009 have not been a good start for me but at least it was a start. I just hope that this coming year will be bigger,better and exciting.. still hoping for good health and blessings to come for us and to you also my dear readers and followers. I am very thankful because without your support, my blog will be nothing..I THANK YOU!!!...

see you in 2010!!!!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS and 1st YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!

Happy Holidays to each and everyone of you!!! we know that the holidays are a time of love,peace and serenity to one and all but let us just remember that we must thank the lord for giving us this wonderful life for us to enjoy, even if there were so many challenges and despairs in our part and this year, we are still thankful that he has given us a chance to prove to ourselves and among others that we have the right to live and we have earned that right..

this month also signals my blog's 1 year Anniversary!! I had fun blogging my everyday adventures as a teenage queer. I hope that we can have more adventures to come, and We can have e colorful and wonderful life...

this is Life of A Teenage Queer saying " HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND GODBLESS EVERYONE!!!"

Paranormal Activity..The Review

have you guys watched this movie? some say it was awesome and some say it was a so - so. maybe it depends on how the person feel or how is the person feeling while watching the movie because in my opinion, the emotion of a moviegoer depicts his or her reactions about the film he or she she watched right? well here is my review about Paranormal Activity..

the movie starts in a suburban community where a newly married couple lives. the girl has been haunted by demonic intervention in the house in ways like movement of furniture,touching,breathing over,creaky sounds and anything you can think of in a scary movie. the movie goes on with the development of the demonic interventions getting much much worse. at the near end of the movie, the girl has been completely possessed with the demon spirit, kills his husband and goes to nothingness.

the movie is great in the sense that it was a middle budgeted film, its like The Blair Witch Project in a more horrific setting, like Cloverfield in a imagination of the antagonists. what's unique about the film is that it has not gone to the usual scary props,prosthetics and 3D effects. it also blends in with the real world in the sense that it was shot using a hand held cam, set in a middle income american family and in a present situation that young couples of today live in together first before marriage. all in all the movie was good but the flaw was some of the scenes in the movie, you can see the effects being made to make the movie much more realistic and much more scary than the other horror films that have been in release for the past months.

SICK!!!! and update of yours truly...

yours truly is home for the weekend because he is very SICK!! I even can't move around the house because of the body pains I am experiencing. hope I can be well for the weeks to come because vacation mode again is getting near and I can't explain but I have a really good feeling tat i'm gonna have a very nice and loving Christmas.. looking for someone for me or to be my "partner" have been in a very low level nowadays especially I am bombarded by school work, projects,examinations and everything about school. I just hope that they will not give us humongous school work to do for the holidays because how can you enjoy the holidays if you have so many work to do right?..

Many people say why not look for a partner? its been months already since your estranged relationship with "that guy". don't mop for him its not worth it... that's the monologue of my friends to me well all I can say is : FYI, I am not moping for him!! he is so not worth it!!.. but also I am tired of the meet - greet - date - relationship - misunderstandings - break up kind of setting. most of my past relationships have been a fall for me and even now I'm still trying to hide the horror they have given to me.. I really just can't understand myself why I am quitting this sort of thing, even if months and years ago this is the center of my life....

Maybe, I am too focused in school now and some activities that's why dating possibilities have been way way down below my list..

Or maybe, I am fed up with the results of my dating scheme that I have given up dating possibilities?

I don't know, but for now.. I'm going to focus on other things beside dating..

and who knows, maybe someday or sometime it may come to me in perfect timing. well then ill just wait when will it happen...I'm not giving up, I'll just put my alter ego to hibernation process since it is still not the right time for my alter ego to rule over me...

for the meantime, I'm happy being single surrounded by persons who love me very dearly, My family and friends.. and I'm also focusing on the upcoming Christmas so ho ho ho to everyone!!1

TD Urduja strikes Cebu...Signal No. 1

as of this moment tropical storm Urduja is planning its way into the Queen City of the South. yes people, she's on her way here. rains have been thundering this great city for hours already and i think that if continued it will result to mass flooding,traffic jams and inconvenience to all people here in cebu especially us students. weather experts are tallying up another Fujiwara Effect to happen here in this part of the country. get your rain gear ready people because we are facing a rough night tonight!!

2012.. a great movie..

have you ever felt so exasperated in a sense that the world is going to end? probably not or maybe or whatever. if ever felt that way then you must watch 2012. this is the new movie released this fall to compliment to us an awareness we must have done and acted years ago but as we all say " Past is Past". this movie is not the typical doomsday movie, it also shares a story of a man separated from his family and wife, had a very bad job because of the recession and is having difficulty in sustaining himself. he finds way to have a bonding time with his children even if his children doesn't really like him anymore. as events of doom looms the earth, this man tries to save his family at all cost so that he can repay all the stupid things he has done so in the past. the movie also awakens us that we must peserve and protect our mother earth because we have no other home than this..

watch 2012, it teaches you many good things that we can use for the lifetime...

Self Preservation is hard...

my journey to self preservation for the past couple of months has been very hard for me. its hard to quite something that you pertain as your life but for the benefit of myself and others I do this self preservation thing to myself to change and outgrow my old me and become a new and exciting me...

I want to achieve at least half of my goal by the end of this year. I hope I can really do it and be a new me next year..

ALONE

Ever since I had my E.R. Days things have changed dramatically in my life. First the thought of my friends especially my two closest friends start to not go to their usual routine that is going home with me. They haven't usually called me now since what hapenned to me. I don't know what happened but things have been diferrent here and all of these happenings has lead me into the depths of being emotional and not long after the feeling of being alone and helpless......

MIDTERM WEEK

well these past few weeks have been a trial for me,maybe because it's midterm week.week I just wish this will be all done I can have my leyte escapade with my friends. Vacation mode is nearing on it's activation. Were just so excited about it

2nd life....

hi everyone its been months already since I last updated my blog.well many events had happen in only a small span of time..well I'm in the singles book again.unfortunately me and him didn't work out and i think will never be..too bad..

ive been to the E.R. again because of my cardiac complications.tsk3x i need to take care of it now and i'm still on for the quest of physical fullfillment for myself..you know what I mean.hehehehe

in other things, Lady Gaga recently had her concert here in the philippines and it was so cool the only bad side of it is the audience wants more..well we can expect that she'll be back. Me and my friend from Metrosports are now on a talk mode. I mean we talk and had some good laughs when he's not bc or have a free time.

also I'm so grateful that Migs of Manila Gay Guy.net has invited me to his MGG for Friends website and im having a good time talking and sharing my views with other PLUs. its good to have friends from other places and have their views about certain issues involving our dilemmas and joys of life.

i dont know but recently these days, i have been going to church lately to hear a mass or to light a candle everyday!!!I always do it now every after classes or before I go home. i don't know what happened and even my friends can't explain what happened but i think this is due to the fact that I am grateful to the God Almighty for giving me my 2nd life and in return I offer my services to him..

you know I realize that for me, dating opportunities are way below my things to do list, maybe because i have many failed relationships and also its not time yet. ill just wait for that certain someone to come and fetch me.hahahaha

SCHOOL MODE....part 1

ei guys!!! its the first week of school again here in cebu and its kinda fast paced now rather than a slow mode we have been anticipating for 1st weeks. well my metrosports monthly credit has expired and i think ill be coming back there in the next few weeks after i have just finished adjusting my schedule because dear god we have classes from monday until saturday!!! and its so tiring. as i went to school in cebu doctors' university( CDU) for the nth time, i saw the faces of the freshies who have just graduated from high school and i remember my freshie days too. like them,we go into groups and are so quite on classes. as always our classes have started with a bang...well thats life and we cant blame anyoe on that..ill have the next part after im finished with my school work. have a good day to all of you!!!

Back to Metrosports....

ei!!!wazzup? its been a long time since I visited my blog due to some circumstances and my self preservation. as days has gone by, i notice that even if i dont eat carbs anymore,i still maintain my "bad weight"(from 120 im back to 130 again..huhuhu). so I said to myself maybe the problem is I lack exercise. so what I did was I renewed my account in Metrosports. its a 4 floor 500 square meter wide stadium wherein you can play badminton,soccer,basketball,tennis. you can also rock climb, have a training in boxing and run through their elliptical running course. its currently located in Salinas Drive, Lahug, Cebu City within the vicinity of Sunflower City and Nuvo...so as I came back to my home Gym, i renewed friendship with the people there.( they all said to me that I have gained more weight than usual) so that motivated me to really pursue this diet plan because I realize that the one who will benifit from it is me, so No harm done and by doing this I can now search for hookups or dating material men. and at last someone will pursue a date with me.. when all the talk was done, one of the staffs there introduced me to their new addition. his name is Ian. tall about 5'6 in height, chinito,has a cute smile,very white complexion and has a cool green braces in his teeth. when I looked at him, he looked at me back and boy was he so cute. he smiled and said "nice meeting you christian"..I was so thunderstruck on what happened that I didn't return the introduction that instant... so after that I began working out. it was so hard,tiring and I feel I wanna give up but I know that all of these pains will lead me to a good note. And now, I'm back at Metrosports with Ian and I really hope we can be good friends...or more if good forbids...hehehehehehehe....see yah!!!

TRAVEL MODE.....

hi!!

      it has been days since i last updated this blog. well, ive started to lose weight by dieting and a morning exercise routine or morning yoga..its really difficult and hard. there are also times that i want to give up but i just put inside my head that this is for the good of me as a person..im on a travel mode now because ill be going to my mom's place to unwind and relax a bit for a while..im proud to say that from 135 i am now 120...hehehehehe...i hope it will get better and if god forbids, it will be my greatest change of all!!! see yah!!1

my journey to self preservation.......

this has been hard for me..i know that if i just have the perseverance and guts to the these things then it will be a good sign... even before i was a kid until now im being teased because of my weight problems and until now some people just cant get the hold of it...before my life was just on having fun,eating and pigging out and everything unworthy but the realization came in when i just recently celebrated my birthday....my crush told me the most sweetest and the most painful words i could ever imagine in my whole life...

he said that he likes me and he thinks that he's falling for me but the thing is im so fat that he is having 2nd thoughts about the things he has been feeling.i was so shocked and heart broken when i heard those words...then a realization hit me like i was being slapped hard in my face.. I AM FAT..... i know its hard to accept but lets face it, you have the ins if you have a sexy body rather than being a fatty right?....i never had a perfect boyfriend in all my life then there comes this opportunity.my crush saying that he likes me but the one thing separates us from each other is my weight issues... i have been thinking about it for days now, and ive made my decision to lose weight even if the hardest way possible... i want to change my life and i know this event will drastically change my life forever.....

i know its hard but i feel that withs god's grace, i can do it......

this wil be the start of " MY JOURNEY TO SELF PRESERVATION".........

Confessions of a Teenage Shopaholic.....

when i go to malls, usually i do the tag line "shop till i drop" but twith the global financial crisis is in effect it came to me that we need to save and spend lesser than we usually do. i just saw the movie and read the book "Confessions of a Shopaholic" by Sophie Kinsella and i have just realized that there's more life in the shopping world..i learned that more and more people are suffering from credit card debts and most of us are shopaholics. me myself i admit it... we must help the shopaholics out there so that we can have a fruitful and happy life...happy sunday...

unemployment...another trouble....

OMG.... the crisis has hitten us very hard and more and more people have been laid off their jobs and are now JOBLESS....unemployment climbs at a all time high this year and well, does it suit you?

its march again....month of new beginnings!!!!

time moves swiftly to us..its march again..students will graduate and face a new chapter on their lives.. i hope they have what it takes to face our more harsh and difficult world but i know that every person has a courage to face our world today....

New Beginning.....

as i have been nearing at an certain age again, i think its time for me to rejuvenate and start a new beginning...my day is coming closer and i think that my day is the most suitable day for the start of my new beginning....i hope i will be successful on this one....